February 7th 2019.
Bismillah, assalamualaikum.

Hi there!
Welcome back :)

Hows everything going?
Alhamdulillah everything is good for me.

Still struggling every day in living. Yep.
I have finished my community medicine and surgery posting. Alhamdulillah :')

Community medicine was truly a new experience for me. We went to long houses doing some research. We did some intervention activities. Intervention is more like an event after we did some questionnaire to the orang kampung regarding an issues to see their level of knowledge towards the issue. And then we will make this intervention in order to increase their level of knowledge or even better which is to increase their level of awareness regarding the issue. Exam CMPH mcm haru biruu sikit for me, cause OSPHE dia huhu ada kelaur ttg SPSS yg tak sempat habis dijawab.. T_T

But alhamdulillah, i managed to get A- for it. Thank you Allah :')

Moving on for surgery posting. So whats a surgery posting?

Well, this posting is the real posting in hospital. I able to experience my very first time in OT (operation theatre) room.. I managed to get to see thyroidectomy (removing thyroid), laparascopic surgery (cholecystectomy, hernia repair, laparotomy..) and yg mcm2 seperti dlm drama korea tu (even i rarely watched korean movie :P). Everytime dalam OT room, mmg selalu kena tanya soalan, and selalu jugak lah kiteorg tak tahu jawapannya xD

But that actually makes us to be more eager in learning so that next time masuk OT kiteorg dah tahu jawapannya kalau ditanya surgeon yg lain hehe.

Surgery is quiet tough and tiring i can say.. but I misssss every bits in surgery posting. The surroundingg is definitely my type. The patients was very nice. The doctors nd surgeons are nice. I miss them soo much :') I thanked Allah for having friends that are with me currently going thorugh this journey. Personally for me, management of patient is the HARDEST part in medicine. The book might say it differently and the hospital protocol itself might be different. We need to always always uptodate with the hospital's way of management. Its quiet a lot to cover all the disease and their management in 2 months time from books and then need to reconfirm with our lecturers and doctors in the hospitals. Sangaaaat sakit.

So cemana life in clinical years sebenarnya? Okay, i can tell a bit what ive experienced so far. Its definitely something new.

Everyday, mmg akan ada BST which is long case presentation in front of our lecturers. Long case ni mcm kita kena history taking, which patient kena bagitahu kita mcm mana first sekali dia rasa sakit. Either tetiba je? Atau lepas makan je rasa sakit? Setiap kali lepas makan atau one episode of pain je? Hahh, sebab every disease dorang ada character dorang sendiri. Yg palingg common dalam ward surgery is peptic ulcer (gastric ulcer and duodenal ulcer). So a good history really tells us a lot and even may lead us to a correct diagnosis. After that,kita kena buat physical examination. What is physical examination? Well, basically kita kena "hands-on" dkt patient. In case of carcinoma, kita kena rasa ada palpable mass or not.. Anatomy is very very important in medicine.

The patients are veryy nice everytime bila approach even i kekadang ada a bit shy to start conversation cause i banyak kali kena reject dgn patients :P

But its okay, cause kita kan tgh sakit.. so i very very appreciated siapa yg bagi untuk kiteorg buat history and PE. Sometimes even some of the patients asked us after kita buat HT and PE.. "doctor, suami/isteri saya sakit apa?" :(

We as a medical student cannot break any news but we can say the findings that we found during examination, lets say kita ada jumpa macam ada mass dkt perut ke or anywhere, all we can say is eg: "kami ada rasa mcm bengkak dekat perut. Tapi kami tak pasti.. nanti apa2 doktor bagitahu dan buat lagi pemeriksaan lebih mendalam." Hah cemtu lah lebih kurang..

I always pray for them everytime after meeting them even just lalu tepi katil pun. I prayyy so that everyone will gain back their health insyaAllah i know they will.

Pernah jugak i kena marah dgn patient cause i buat case note dorang mcm harta :')
Time nilah start fobia nak approach patient haha. But we cannot let that happen anymore. I will remember in the future that, jangan ulang balik okay :'')


Mental breakdown is one of the thing i experienced during the posting. Tahap breakdown dia like, time tengah study suddenly boleh emo and nak nangis tetiba.

I you guys ever feel this way, i think its normal for everyone. Its okay to cry. Remember, to never ever feel like we are alone. Bila sedih, terus bangun ambil wudhu' and solat sunat. Thats what i do everytime before i go to sleep every night. Cause every night study, then stress kan? :P Let go everything dekat atas sejadah sampai rasa lega. Remember, du'a. I always believe that every sincere prayers perform by a sincere heart will always be heard. I really believe that. Mintak, jelaskan permintaan tersebut. Supaya diri kita tahu apa yg kita nak cause sometimes kita mcm lost dari tujuan kita. So prayers helps us to clear back our mind for things that we want to achieve and request. Also, find some friends that you guys can borak with to release some of the burden.  At least ada org untuk diluahkan perasaan.

So im officially done my work in hospital Sibu and will be going to Kuching for the next posting which is Obs & Gynae. Please, pray for me and my friends in going through this :)

Im currently still building myself to be a better future healer. InsyaAllah may Allah ease.


May everything is going well for you too. InsyaAllah, so until here for now. Assalamualaikum.
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